euphoria

 I'm falling into a relapse.

I was happy. I had fun. I found myself falling again after realizing that maybe I'm not worth as much as I thought. I'm tired. I had this overthinking circus going in my head and I was brisk walking through Mydin alone, trying to not cry while getting some fucking cling wraps. I think its because I have been forcing myself to carry this emotional baggage and pretend its not there. But what else could I have done? If I let it get to me, you'd call me immature for not being able to sort out my issues. 

I want to cry, but I can't for now. I have so, so much stuff to be done. I can't afford another breakdown. 

Please help me, somebody.